Its like so much of nothing matters anymore. They say that so much of your childhood is devoted to finding who you truly are when the reality is its more about creating who you really want to be. Sometimes shit surface faster than you want it to causing you to appear more vulnerable than you really are. But even though you know that you arent what people expect you to be, we always tend to fall into that pattern that the've laid out for us. We expect so much from other people while staying so oblivious to the fact that we have done nothing to gain that level of respect or companionship. You have to give a little to get a little. My reality is much different than i may portray it to be. Its like im the go to guy, which most people may love but i loathe. I hate being the only who knows the answer because somewhere along the line everyone becomes dependant of me and my answers... Only called when im needed. "cant make it", now somebody mad at me like i let them down, when the truth is that they let themselves down. "freinds" dont exist where im from, only people you know and people you dont know. Why hide the truth and die with the facts? Its not worth it. Everone knows the answers, but no-one admits to truth. The biggest cover-up throughout history... Truth... The truth behind THE REALITY OF REJECTION.
